Tuesday March 31st
My girl's first birthday. We had her first professional pictures made. (and I bought the photo cd, so the images are MINE I say, MINE!)
Saturday April 4th
My girls first birthday party. We ate mini hamburgers and opened presents. My girl burned her arm on the lighter my husband used to light the candles on her cake. She received a hot pink rifle as a gift from my brother. Fun was had by all.
We also told our close family and friends that we were expecting baby number two by presenting my girl in her big sister shirt. (keep reading, I say were for a reason) Due December 4th, so we were expecting to have a baby around Thanksgiving or so.
Saturday April 11th
My brother's 25th birthday party.
Sunday April 12th
A good Easter, my girl's first.
The rest of April went off without a hitch, except for the mild and only occasional morning sickness.
Our four-year anniversary.
Friday May 22nd-25th
Memorial Day weekend. The husband had to work (boo) so my girl and I loaded up with my mom, aunt and uncle and hit the beach. It was her first time, and it took a little getting used to. She hated the sand and refused to walk in it, at least the first day.
So my aunt had the fabulous idea of leaving her socks on in her shoes, and voila, it did the trick and she splashed around in the water like a little fish.
We hurried home on Memorial Day, the 25th so I could get to my 12 week doctor's appointment. Oh yeah, my girl started cutting her top teeth, after having the two on the bottom since Thanksgiving. That's six months folks.
Friday May 22rd
Get a call from our realtor informing us that we won't be closing on our house the following week because the buyer's loan fell through. Great.
I'm still working through all of this, so forgive me for lack of detail.
12 week OB appt. Doctor couldn't find the heartbeat with the doppler, so we went to ultrasound, were we were told that our baby had no heartbeat and had probably passed away about three weeks prior. He (I have a very strong feeling it was a boy) measured 8 weeks and 5 days. The doctor discussed the options: let things happen naturally, or schedule a D&C.
I asked the sonographer to print a picture.
Tuesday May 26th
Stayed home from work. Too heartbroken to face everything. Went back to the OB and spoke to a different doctor to ask some questions and hear the answers with a clearer head.
Friday May 29th
D&C. Surgery. Sucks.
Wednesday June 3rd
Got to work and checked my email only to discovery a message from our superintendent informing all non-tenured employees that our contracts will not be renewed for the next year. Freakin great. No job. They layed off 131 teachers with an email. Yes, an email.
My girl had an appointment with the ENT because she has had 6 stinkin ear infections in the past 7ish months. We wait what felt like ten years to see the doctor for 4.2 minutes. "We can do tubes" is what he says. Great. She has a cold and already has fluid in her ears. Just waiting for the next infection.
Thursday June 4th-Wednesday June 10th
The worst week of EOC testing that I hope to EVER experience. Testing, retesting. Learning contracts, waivers. It was bad. I mean, IT WAS BAD.
Friday June 5th
Pick up my girl at daycare and they tell me that she has been pulling on her ear all afternoon. Great. Doctor. Ear infection number 7. Tubes imminent.
Tuesday June 9th
Realtor says buyer has financing. Sale is back on.
Wednesday June 10th
Post-operative checkup at OB. Everything is fine, bleeding should stop very soon. Urine shows I'm still getting a positive result on a pregnancy test. Can mean that some tissue is still left behind. Retest in two weeks and call if not negative. Weird.
Friday June 12th
My girl's pre-op appointment. Drove 45 minutes to sign three sheets of paper. Nice.
I should probably also include that my husband has been working overtime and weekends since right after I had my surgery. He has gotten home betwen 8 and 10pm every night. Glad to have the work, but boy does it bite not having him here.
Monday June 15th
My girl's surgery. It took all of 15 minutes, but I was a complete wreck the entire time. I do not want to see the inside of a hospital again for a very, very long time. Here she is sleeping it off.
So we are now three days post-surgery and she is doing well. She didn't feel so great the rest of the day, but she's playing and being herself now. She still has the cold that led to the ear infection and is now cutting at least one of the teeth, probably both, that are beside the two front ones. Whatever they're called. This picture is actually from the weekend before her surgery.
And coming up in July....Summer school! Which I agreed to teach while pregnant and anticipating maternity leave in the fall. We need the money, but I have a sneaking suspicion that it is a decision I will come to regret.
This ridiculously long post should give you some insight as to why updating the blog has been on the back burner. And who really reads it anyway? Just my way of working through it all for myself I think.
Basically in the course of the last three and a half weeks, we've had a miscarriage, lost a job, lost the contract on our house (which is now back on-yay) and two of the three people in our family have undergone surgery. It could be worse. We have so much to be thankful for even in the shadow of all we've gone through lately. I'm trying to remember that.